Someone once told me that being happy should not be a goal. It should be something you do to inspire you to do more good things. Just yesterday, I don’t know what came into me. I was so uptight and frustrated that I had to take a cold shower suddenly. I was really pissed off that I had to throw my toiletries and hit the wall with my fist. (yeah, just like an angry kid and my fingers still hurt til now)
The boyfriend was just calm and ignored me. Actually he ignored me the whole day. He did the dishes, bought our food, and even washed Yz before going to bed. With that, I took the liberty to contemplate. No, I didn’t have to go somewhere else just to ruminate my goals, condition myself and re-evaluate my current situation.
Boom! I realized that my brother was right. He used to tell me that I am ‘maldita’ (spoiled brat, primadonna). I never really believed him until yesterday. The last year I spent my days complaining. No, I won’t give my complaints in detail but I do complain about every little thing especially my migraine. I complain too much that if every complain is worth a dollar then Kaye (my shock absorber) would have been a millionaire by now. *wink wink*
Although marce Pehpot is not around during this time of my rumination, her advice before stuck on my head. Add to that Niko‘s out-of-the-blue’s naive comment when I share my endless gripes. If it weren’t for their experiences that they cared to share, then I could’ve been in the dumpster right now. no.. kidding. I was just so lucky that although Jade was so busy attending to her hub, she had the time to tell me that the boyfriend and I should talk it over.
I massed up all my pride and threw them out of the window. I went to the boyfriend to talk to him. but it ended up him giving me a pep talk (as usual). Now I remembered my New Year’s resolution. Be Happy. Maybe I should post a big banner on our wall for me to be reminded all the time. Heck. Is it really that hard to be happy?
So far so good. I passed the day just being happy and the boyfriend and the baby are happy as well. I know you can’t change overnight. I’m taking each day at a time starting my day just being happy. ^^v
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hehe gawa ka ng malaking smiley sa harap ng work station mo
ayan sumisingit lang habagn tulog pa mga bata haays
Staying happy is not really easy but can be worked out
You are blessed to have, should I say matured husband? At least he can stand on your tantrums hehehehe…
May the Lord bless you and your family
Be Happy 
Hormones yan, problema ng lahat ng babae. haha
Buti pa mga asawa natin parang walang problema. Parang gusto ko na maging lalaki. hihi
me too ako yong palaging grumpy and then I decided to humble myself, and try to be happy always even in trying circumstances kaya I’m happy with the result…Cheers to us marce!!!
buti na lang andyan ang friends para sa support. at talagang lahat ng bagay ay madadaan sa magandang usapan.