Mommy Moments – First Picture

Every time I look at this picture, a teardrop falls from my eye. It’s beyond words.  I’m sorry I didn’t have my share of pain since I didn’t go through labor (and I somewhat regret that). I have no tolerance for pain that’s why we opted to have my tummy cut.

Who wouldn’t undergo CS (Caesarian Section) with a small figure like mine and a big baby to deliver? May 8th is boyfriend’s birthday. My daughter was 39 weeks that time, and is ripe. She can be picked out anytime. I’ve read that on the 38th week, the baby is in full bloom. If babies reach 40th week inside mommy’s tummy, there can be some problems (like Premature babies). We had my baby’s ultrasound on May 7th, checked if her little toes and fingers are complete.. just in time to have her delivered on her Dad’s birthday.

We weren’t able to see her face unlike this ultrasound we had when she was 7 months inside my tummy. In essence this is her very first picture:

I didn’t see nor hear her cry when my daughter was taken out of my tummy. After they’ve given me the epidural anesthesia, I dozed off (which I think I wasn’t supposed to… I should’ve been half awake). I heard the Anesthesiologist (who was very nice and friendly) asked me to move my right leg and I can’t move it. The next thing I know, the pediatrician said, “Here’s your baby”… and everything was blur. I was too groggy to move nor talk..  But I remember how the baby looked. “Why does she look like her grandfather? (Boyfriend’s Dad that I only saw in pictures).

Boyfriend said I was too groggy that I was cursing and of course, crying. Maybe I did have my share of pain in installment. It was excruciating. I can’t move my body. I needed strong pain killers. I cried to my obgyne so she kept on changing my meds to high dosage. The nurses were encouraging me by saying, “How will you be able to see and hold your baby if you can’t even sit up?”

I only saw my baby through the pictures in Digicam boyfriend took. That was a very surreal moment when he was showing me those pics of our little one in the nursery (like in the movies where everything felt perfect). After 3 nights, that’s only the time that I held my baby for the first time (what? No picture?)

Before the nurses brought my daughter in my room, I couldn’t even stand up. But when I saw them with my baby, I was able to stand and walk right away. She was crying endlessly. My sister took her, but she still cried. And guess what? When I held her, she stopped crying. How did she know that it was her Mom carrying her now? Wow! ^^

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